Break The Window So You Can Breathe

A month in and I can honestly say there has been major progress since I last confessed. Minimal yet major. It's the little things that are beginning to add up.

In this moving process, I have been endlessly blessed with help and guidance from friends on all levels. What surprises me the most is that people are actually willing to assist me. Friends of friends of the 6th degree separation have reached out and volunteered their knowledge and their networks leaving me with a continue hope to make this real.

Imagine taking a nail and slightly taping it into a glass window. It doesn't completely shatter or break- it cracks and spiderwebs into an unclear image. After last week's endeavors, the upcoming future has shown a sneak peak. A little noise from the break and a big push from the possibility presented. Of course, it's all still in the making. The window is simply beginning to fall out. I can't see what's ahead but the tiny slits have leaked a breathe of fresh air.

And I must say I am looking forward to more cracks in the window.

Dream Big

Needless to say, with all the magical commotion my life has held, my thoughts have been scattered and endless for this past month. Between sister getting engaged, Christmas with boyfriend's family and New Years with the besties, 2012 arrived faster than I imagined and suddenly I feel everything is set up before my eyes. This will be a big year- I will successfully change jobs (hello new year resolution), we will move to New York City, I will visit my grandparents in Texas, travel home multiple times, turn 24 (which I am actually very excited for) and complete my 366 degree project with my best friend Jenna (curious? This is our blog and y'all can check it out! http://366degreesofyou.tumblr.com/ ). Oh and, of course, I'll leave room for the unpredictably predictable unknown cause we know it's coming.

As someone who loves being organized and creating lists, New Year Resolutions are my fav but I call them goals and I actually do them. They're realistic, they're silly yet simple and typically come in even numbers. My ten for 2012 include reading more (so many books and yet only one pair of eyes), staying happy & healthy, finding a job where I enjoy at least one out of the five days (yes my standards are that low due to my current situation), completing the previously mentioned 366 project and others involve saving and running and moving and going home more and sending snail mail. It's day 3 and I'm 10 for 10 if that's such a possibility.

I must say I go back and forth from being worried to excited to anxious to curious to lost to happy to some unknown abyss in my mind when I think about the next two months. There are many things I am not ready for. I'm not ready to leave my friends, the family that has so graciously accepted me as their own and the warm, tough Boston layer I've grown. I'm not ready to live in a big unknown city with an unknown job in a current unknown apartment. I suppose the only think I am ready for is the challenge. Embracing the fear and truly believing that it will all work out. And this time, when I pack it all up and start another chapter, I get my best friend/soul mate/boyfriend/other half to join me. So in the end- it can't be that bad... right?

On a final scattered note, I recently heard a quote and so I leave you with the peace it has brought me...

"If your dreams do not scare you, they are not big enough"